wew! after the red jumpsuit apparatus, here it comes again to rock our world which is also a foreign band also known as SECONDHAND SERENADE, the mini concert held in GREENBELT, MAKATI.

before that mini-concert, i guess around 10:00am still, i dont have any permission coming from my mom in that particular event. i'm waiting for the right turn so that i can go to that event, my mind is so confused if i will lie or just said the truth t so ive decided that i will tell the truth with a bit of lie, haha lol =))

i dont want to elaborate more what's exactly ive done.

haha sorry im a bit of lazy today, you know :)

DESPEDIDA AND FARWELL PARTY OF BSIT-1B !

woo ! for the first time girls and boys of BSIT-1B united ! haha what a huge experience :))

well thanks for our subject ART APPRECIATION because it gave us a chance to have a bonding session while making MUSIC VIDEO for FINALS !

wew ! it happened last March 22, 2009 Friday in CIRCLE ISLAND together with:

last Monday, MARCH 16, 2009 in about 5:30 am, my mother woke me up crying and telling that his father is already gone =( im super shocked when i heard that, poor mom.

im trying myself to be strong and i see to it that i always cheer my mom coz i know its very hard to accept the fact that she didnt been able to tell what she wanted to my grandfather.

im very sad at this moment *crying*. i didnt been able to hug my grandfather and talk to him even for just a bit when we're there last vacation coz his also busy in our FARM (bohol).

i know he is happy now, seeing all his love ones unites. i know he is in peace with GOD smiling.

I LOVE YOU LOLO, have a great day in HEAVEN. I WILL MISS YOU =(

here iam, CONFESSING x(

actually, i dont know what i feel at the moment. im so confused about our relationship. AGAIN, we didnt been able to see each other in about 2 weeks onwards. i hate the way it flows. i thought i told it to him clearly what im trying to say in my last *tampururot* or should i say argument. but as what ive not expected, it's still the same; the feeling of being so alone, the feeling of talking to myself, imagining im with him, the feeling of being messed up.

he told me that the reason of he's absence is none other than his STUDIES. i believe in him. it's true. but what i hate is that he can't manage his time wisely especially his time with me. i can't blame him, coz it's real that it's very hard doing projects and assignments at the same time ( if you didnt know he has 14 subjects and studying in ADAMSON UNIVERSITY taking up COMP.SCI ).

but still it's not an excuse.

i wonder what his doing, imagine where he are, planning for our future. but the question is: "DOES HE EVEN THINK TO ME?" or it's just that, *nothing* for him?

i feel so miserable. i dont want to be adore, i want to be LOVED ! loved by someone that has time for me, whose concern with my feelings, the one with effort just to communicate or be with me.

but then again, it's wrong to expect. because in the end you' will find yourself bleeding, expecting for nothing x(

i think IM NUMB, very. waiting for my everything x(

ow . im sure u gonna ask what's happened in my share right ? if not, go to hell right away ! haha just kidding guys :D

hmm . the speaker is KUYA JN and the sharer are meryl and no other than me . what happened now is that, i got mentally block ! i did not say what i have to say, haha so embarassing but it's OK, actually it's my first time .

that's all. actually i dont want to talk about it, but all in all it's good. hopefully =)